What to do... (Does this count as a blog entry?)

Man, I gotta blog! (Now isn't this exciting since I have only been doing this for less than a couple of weeks- I think.) Anyway, as I am researching blogs for the purpose of completing the blogging assignment, I have come to realize I am a mess in my head (ADD as previously mentioned- I suppose). Well, I don't know what I want to do with my life, or perhaps I should say there are too many things grabbing for my attention. The good thing is that I am in a job that I love because I get to build relationships with students (one-on-one, almost all day long), and I feel like I am making a difference for them. I tutor them as diligently as they want to be tutored; I teach college success strategies; I visit with students in the hallways; I advise them in terms of academic classes to take... (Anyway you get the point.) Now back to the point... I don't see myself doing this for very long.(It's too easy, and I am not sure I have freedom to grow; perhaps, however, this is only in my mind.) But I get to work on my master's degree w/o stressing out too much because of job conflicts. But what next? I have taught high school biology for 18 years; I've worked at a community college in my current position for three years; I'm about to complete my master's degree. What next? I am considering, just considering, continuing on with post graduate studies. (After all, I've been taking classes ever since I started in the first grade. Why should I stop now?) Now how does all of this relate to the assignment? Well, all this time spent looking for blogs to reflect on has dis-settled (is that a word?) me. I can't seem to get a focus. I had a difficult time settling on a blog to reflect on, much less two blogs. Anyway, I have seen and read some really cool things since I started this assignment. It has caused me, once again, to ask myself questions: Who am I? What do I want to do with my life? What are my priorities? I know I am an educator; this I am passionate about. But what do I educate people about: biology, learning, self-development, spiritual growth, environmental stewardship??? I've read so many blogs about all of these that I am inspired and discontent at the same time. (This seems to be the story of my life.) But I am 45 years old-almost. Is this a mid-life crises? Should I be scared? Or am I taking this blogging assignment to seriously? And that is another issue with me: I take every graduate course I take as if it is my life. I think about it a lot; I imagine ways of incorporating it into my life and the lives of those around me; I want to talk about it with others. And I don't even care if I get an A or not, I just want to learn something. I love to learn, and I have a great work ethic; I just don't know how to balance the two with the rest of my life. O.K. I don't know if I should be apologizing or not because I don't know about blogging etiquette, but I am sorry for those of you on my ITED team who have to read my ramblings. Hopefully, some of you will have ramblings too, and I can pay penitence by reading through yours. :-)